MondaySunshine wrote:Moral of the story - its easy for people on the internet to not give a shit about you when it actually counts.
I would file a lawsuit to recover the source code, but it's unlikely that I would win. We didn't incorporate, he didn't sign anything, and all I have is the memory of how our (many) conversations went about the site. I trusted Bucky because we have played together since 2005. I know his name and I'm friends with him and his wife on Facebook. Basically, I know Bucky as well as you can know somebody through the internet. But, my trust was still apparently misplaced.
Sigh. My immediate reaction to this is "Fuck Off" but in truth I actually feel bad for leaving Holy in the lurch. But I did have a good reason.
A few months ago I started having heart problems. Skipping beats (Premature ventricular contraction, average 5000+ a day) which would be followed by a rapid heart beat (160 BPM while at rest) known as supraventricular tachycardia (as opposed to the more deadly ventricular tachycardia). I have pretty much spent the last few months in a anxiety ridden state fearful that any day may be my last day while doctors do tests trying to get a handle on what might be going on all the while telling me that despite what I was feeling in my chest that I had nothing to be concerned about.
I withdrew from any real form of social interaction and spent all my free time with my wife because being with her is more important to me than any website or playing any video game.
It probably would have been better if I had just handed Holy the source code though I am doubtful he would have been able to do much with it. Further, as Holy pointed out we hadn't signed anything and while I do trust Holy I am not inclined to give my work away with no assurance as to what will happen to it and what my role would be. I honestly figured if the heart thing resolved itself then I would resume working on it and if it didn't, well, I probably wouldn't be around to care.
In the end the only thing the doctors could find was that I have mild mitral valve prolapse with minimal mitral regurgitation which doesn't really explain what I went through. The current best guess was that I was simply pushing to hard. My stress load was too high between my regular job, eFPS, and normal life events. I wasn't sleeping enough and was consuming way to much caffeine. All of which made a rather benign condition into something very terrifying.
The SVT has gone away and while I still have occasional PVCs it appears that they are subsiding as well with the beta blocker I have been put on. I still have anxiety attacks but am resisting any of the drugs for that in favor of trying to relieving my anxiety more naturally though exercise and meditation.
I am glad to see that Holy (and company) managed to get something up for eFPS. I may eventually return to working on the source code I have. For eFPS to be truly manageable it needs a real backend that ties everything together. I have a fair piece of that done and would like to see it come to fruition. But it will happen on my own terms. No more days with only 3 hours sleep and 2 liters of Mt Dew drunk for weeks on end.
Anyways... I really do regret leaving Holy in the state that I did and hope he understands why I did.
Bucky
P.S. I now have a solid loathing for the practice of "lets schedule for this test in two weeks... complete test... we will get you your results in two weeks... here are your results... lets schedule this other test for two weeks..." Give me all the fucking tests now, give me my results as fast as possible and lets get this nipped in the bud before the anxiety causes me to have a damn heart attack. And I even have really good insurance through work. Fuck.
